4338.211.3 | Abandoned Love

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The Sergeant's words hit me like a gust of cold wind as I stumbled through the doorway of his office, immediately on Karl's heels. "Well, don't you two look like shit," he remarked, his tone a blend of sarcasm and mild concern. His eyes briefly scanned us, taking in our drenched clothes and dishevelled appearances. We must have looked like two characters straight out of a noir film, except there was nothing glamorous about our current state – soaked to the bone, mud splattered, and emotionally spent.

"Sergeant," Karl began, his voice steady despite our rough exterior. He took a step forward, assuming the lead in our impromptu debriefing. "I'd like to request an unmarked car to stake out Gladys Cramer's house. Just in case she goes home tonight." His request was direct, his tone professional, yet there was an underlying urgency that suggested this was more than just a routine ask.

I stood there, slightly behind Karl, trying to compose myself. My thoughts were still a whirlwind, the emotional turmoil from the forest lingering like a stubborn fog. The safety and dryness of the office felt surreal, a stark contrast to the relentless rain and emotional intensity we had just left behind.

I watched the Sergeant's face for a reaction, his expression always a barometer of how feasible our requests were. Part of me wanted to chime in, to add weight to Karl's request, but my voice seemed to have deserted me. Instead, I found myself quietly analysing the room, the familiar sights of the office providing a strange comfort. The walls adorned with commendations, the cluttered desk, the faint smell of coffee – all these details formed a backdrop to our current, somewhat dishevelled, situation.

"No," the Sergeant replied curtly, his eyes not leaving the stack of papers in front of him.

"No?" Karl's voice echoed through the room, tinged with a frustration that had been simmering just below the surface all day.

"That's right. No," the Sergeant repeated, his attention still firmly anchored to his work. His indifference to our drenched and dishevelled state, to our urgency, felt like a silent rebuke.

"But why the hell not?" Karl's voice rose, the volume amplifying his frustration and disbelief.

"Karl," Sergeant Claiborne finally looked up, his gaze meeting Karl's. The moment felt charged, a palpable tension hanging in the air. "We already have other patrols scheduled to pass by her house regularly. If she returns home, we'll catch her and bring her in for questioning.”

The Sergeant's words were meant to be reassuring, a logical explanation in a day that had been anything but. Yet, they landed like a lead weight in the room, the implication clear – our personal involvement in this part of the investigation was over.

"For fuck's sake!" The words burst from Karl like steam from a pressure valve, his composure shattering in an instant. He stormed out of the Sergeant's office, the door slamming shut behind him with a finality that echoed through the suddenly silent space.

I stood there, momentarily frozen. The façade of respectful control Karl had maintained all day had finally fallen away, leaving behind a raw, unfiltered display of emotion. I felt a pang of empathy for him, understanding all too well the frustration of being sidelined when every instinct screamed to stay involved.

I hurried after Karl, my footsteps echoing on the hard concrete of the carpark. The cool air nipped at my skin, a stark contrast to the heated tension that had just unfolded in the Sergeant's office. "Karl. Wait! Where are you going?" My voice cut through the late afternoon air as I tried to catch up to him before he could disappear into his car.

Karl paused momentarily, his back still turned to me. "To find Gladys," he said, his voice blunt, carrying a determination that bordered on recklessness.

"Karl, don't," I warned him, finally reaching his side. "The Sergeant denied the request. You can't." My words were a plea, an attempt to tether him back to reason, to remind him of the protocols and procedures we were bound to follow.

Karl turned to face me, his expression taut with frustration. "I don't really care what the Sergeant said," he snapped, the sharpness in his voice like a slap. It was clear that the denial from the Sergeant had only fuelled his resolve, pushing him further towards a path I feared would lead to more trouble.

Without another word, Karl got into his car, the movement brisk and final. He slammed the door shut, the sound reverberating through the carpark. I stood there, watching him, feeling a mix of worry and frustration. His action, so decisive and unyielding, left me feeling helpless, a bystander in a narrative that was spiralling out of control.

Before Karl could pull away, acting on impulse, my feet carried me swiftly to the passenger side of his car. Without hesitation, I opened the door and jumped into the seat, a sense of urgency propelling my movements. "I'm coming with you," I declared, my voice firm, challenging him to argue.

As I settled into the seat, I couldn't help but acknowledge the complex emotions swirling within me. Despite Karl's recent behaviour, his sudden penchant for aggression, I knew the truth that lay in my heart – I had fallen in love with him. It was a realisation that came with its own pain, especially in moments like these. Seeing Karl so tormented, so willing to break the rules, was like watching the man I knew and loved morph into someone unrecognisable. The Karl I loved, the one I had come to know so well, was methodical, respectful of the law. He would never willingly step outside the boundaries of protocol. Never.

But then, unexpectedly, Karl's demeanour shifted. He leaned over quickly and kissed me, his lips firm against mine. It was a sudden, intense moment of connection that caught me off guard. I responded instinctively, kissing him back with a passion that surprised even me. There was a desperation in that kiss, a fervent desire to hold onto the moment, to prolong the sensation of his lips on mine. For those few seconds, nothing else mattered – not the case, not the rules, not the impending storm of consequences.

As quickly as it had begun, the kiss ended. Karl pulled away, and without uttering a single word, he started the ignition. The moment had passed, but it left a lingering warmth, a silent acknowledgement of something deeper between us.

I turned to face the window, my gaze fixed on the outside world that was blurring into motion. A slight smile crossed my face, a private, treasured reaction to the unexpected kiss. In that fleeting moment of intimacy, a thought fluttered through my mind, a hopeful whisper amidst the chaos – maybe he does really love me back. It was a thought both frightening and exhilarating.

The silence between us was thick, laden with unspoken thoughts and emotions, as we pulled out of the station’s carpark. The car's engine hummed softly, a subtle soundtrack to our journey down the Brooker and towards Gladys' house. Outside, the city lights blurred past, painting streaks of colour against the night sky. I found myself staring out the window, lost in the myriad reflections of our recent encounter, the kiss still lingering in my mind like a sweet aftertaste.

Suddenly, my heart leaped into my throat. "Shit, Karl!" I shouted, instinctively gripping the dashboard as the car drifted dangerously towards the left lane, flirting perilously close with adjoining traffic. My voice was sharp, a reflexive burst of fear breaking the silence.

Karl's reaction was immediate and rough. He yanked the wheel, pulling us back into our own lane with a jolt that sent a rush of adrenaline through my body. The near-miss left my heart pounding, a stark reminder of the precariousness of our current situation.

"Where are we going?" I asked, my voice still tinged with the remnants of my earlier alarm. The question hung in the air as Karl made a premature right turn, exiting the highway in a move that seemed unplanned, spontaneous.

Karl remained silent, his jaw set, his focus entirely on the road ahead. He drove the car towards the Entertainment Centre, a sprawling complex that now lay dormant and shrouded in darkness. The once vibrant hub of activity was eerily quiet, its usual bustle replaced by an almost tangible stillness.

In silence, Karl manoeuvred the car into the empty car park of the Entertainment Centre, driving us towards the farthest, darkest corner of the great concrete expanse. The car's headlights cut through the darkness, casting long, ominous shadows that seemed to dance around us. As he brought the car to a stop, I felt a sense of isolation enveloping us, the darkness acting like a shroud, separating us from the rest of the world.

As I turned to look at Karl, the dim light from the dashboard faintly illuminated his profile, casting deep shadows that only served to deepen the mystery of his current state of mind. His expression was an enigma, closed off and distant, a stark contrast to the openness we had shared just moments ago. The silence between us was almost palpable, heavy with unspoken questions and tensions.

In this secluded, shadowy corner of the Entertainment Centre's car park, the world seemed to stand still. It felt as though we had entered a different realm, far removed from our identities as detectives, from the structured world of law and order that usually defined us. Here, in this hidden space, it was just Karl and me, alone with the uncertainties and complexities of our personal and professional entanglements.

"What are you doing?" I asked, my voice breaking the silence. As I turned to face him fully, my brows furrowed in confusion, betraying the turmoil of thoughts and emotions swirling within me. The dim light cast panicked wrinkles across my youthful features, a physical manifestation of the unease that gripped me.

I watched Karl intently, searching for some clue, some indication of his thoughts. The urgency of the situation, the strange detour to this deserted place, and Karl's uncharacteristic behaviour had left me feeling unmoored, adrift in a sea of uncertainty. My heart raced, a mix of apprehension and a deep-seated need to understand what was driving him, what had led us to this moment of quiet confrontation in the darkness.

As Karl leaned in to kiss me again, his movement was swift, a sudden closing of the space between us. But the moment was interrupted, almost comically, by the restraint of his still buckled seatbelt. It jammed, halting his advance just a few inches from my face, an unforeseen barrier in an otherwise fluid motion.

He tugged at it impatiently, but the more he yanked, the more stubbornly the belt seemed to hold him in place. "Ah, shit," he muttered, teeth gritted in irritation.

In that instant, as I stared into his eyes, something unexpected stirred within me. The sight of Karl, usually so in control, now momentarily hindered by the seatbelt, sent a surprising pulse of desire through me. It was the rawness of the moment, the unintended vulnerability, that was strangely captivating. The sound of the belt clanking, the physical struggle – it was real, unscripted, and far more enticing than any of our carefully orchestrated role-plays in the bedroom.

A wave of longing washed over me, intense and undeniable. I want him so badly. The thought was clear, a silent admission that echoed loudly in the quiet of the car. This was not just a physical attraction; it was deeper, more visceral. It was a desire born from the complex tapestry of our shared experiences, the tension of the day, and the unspoken understanding that had grown between us.

As Karl continued to wrestle with the seatbelt, I was acutely aware of the close proximity of our faces, of the heat that emanated from him, and of the quickening of my own heartbeat. The car, with its dimly lit interior, felt like a cocoon, isolating us from the rest of the world. In this secluded space, the lines between duty and desire, between professionalism and passion, seemed to blur, leaving us in a limbo of heightened emotions and unspoken questions. The intensity of the moment hung in the air, a palpable force that seemed to draw us inexorably closer, even as the seatbelt held us apart.

Without warning, I shoved Karl hard, forcing him back into his seat, the belt reclaiming more of itself as it retreated behind him, tightening its grip on his body. I felt my nipples harden with excitement. My hands wanted to grip his body as tightly as the belt. Tighter, in fact.

Karl let a silent tear roll down his cheek. I could feel his vulnerability, finally unshackled. It called to me. My seatbelt unbuckled with a loud click, fighting back my intense urge to strip down and expose my nakedness to him as he continued battling with the seatbelt that held him bound.

Karl reached out to me, but I only pushed him back against his seat with an intensity I didn't realise I had. Another tear escaped and rolled its way down his stubbled cheek.

I faced him, my hands feeling their way across his rippling chest. The intensity of my emotions burned like a wildfire in my eyes as I pressed my mouth against his. My tongue felt its way along the length of his rough lips, searching for a way in. After a few moments of resistance, he opened his mouth and allowed my tongue to find his. As we kissed, Karl reached out his left hand and held me firmly behind my neck, drawing me in closer to him.

With surprising force, my hands ripped open Karl's still damp shirt, sending several buttons scattering around us. His chest felt warm and firm against my cool hands. Moving my hand along Karl's inner thigh, I massaged his taut muscles with the tips of my fingers, before making my way further along to find the centre of his passion.

Karl put his hands on my waist. They found their way under my shirt and made their way gradually up my smooth, toned stomach. My breasts rested comfortably in his large hands as he massaged them gently, causing moments of pleasure to escape my lips as we continued to kiss.

I unbuckled Karl's seatbelt, finally freeing him from his canvas position. Carefully, yet purposefully, I unzipped his trousers. My body trembled with satisfaction, listening to the gentle moans that escaped his mouth as I took his pride in my mouth. His firm dick pulsed in my hands, sending waves of electrifying sexual energy through both of us with every move I made.

I came up to kiss him again, with a hungry intensity I had never experienced before. I pulled my own trousers down to my ankles and climbed onto his lap.

Karl seat slid back as far as it would go, stopping with a harsh thud. The car rocked to the rhythm of our energetic, passionate lovemaking.


Falling back into my seat, I felt the rapid pounding of my heart gradually begin to subside, a physical reminder of the intensity of the moment we had just shared. My breathing was still uneven, each breath a testament to the raw emotions that had been unleashed. The air in the car felt charged, thick with unspoken words and the echoes of our desires.

"Still want to go and see Gladys?" I asked, unable to suppress the wide, cheeky smile that spread across my face. It was a playful question, an attempt to lighten the mood, to bridge the gap between the intensity of our encounter and the reality of our situation.

Karl closed his eyes for a moment, as if gathering his thoughts, or perhaps trying to distance himself from the rush of emotions. "No," he replied bluntly, his voice firm, signalling a shift back to the matter at hand. "I think it's time to pay Beatrix a visit."

"Beatrix?" I echoed in astonishment, my mind still swirling with a cocktail of hormones and the lingering aftershocks of sex. "Who the fuck is Beatrix?" The question came out more forcefully than I had intended.

"Beatrix Cramer. Gladys' sister," he answered, his eyes opening to meet mine. There was a sharpness in his gaze, a focus that had returned with his decision. "I've done my homework."

"What! Now?" I blurted out, my expression morphing into one of sheer bewilderment. The sudden shift in Karl's demeanour, from the heat of our intimate moment to this cold, focused resolve, swept away the lingering oxytocin haze that had enveloped me.

"Yes," Karl replied firmly, his voice slicing through the air with an unwavering certainty. He reached across to the back seat, retrieving a small duffel bag that had been lying there unnoticed. From it, he fished out a fresh grey t-shirt and swiftly pulled it over his head, his movements precise and efficient. "And I need to go alone," he added, his tone leaving no room for negotiation.

I remained frozen in my seat, staring at him with wide, furious eyes. My mind was racing, a whirlwind of confusion and hurt. That had been the most passionate sex we had ever had. I was so sure, in that brief, intense moment of connection, that Karl was on the brink of confessing his love for me. Did I misunderstand? The question echoed in my mind, a painful doubt that clawed at my heart. Was it not good?

As these thoughts swirled in my head, Karl reached across me, his body stretching towards the passenger door. His long fingers found the handle, and with a single, firm action, he pushed my door open. It swung open slightly, only to fall closed again with a dull, resigned thud.

The gesture was clear, unambiguous. I didn't need him to try again to open the door to understand his message. He wanted me to leave, and he was serious about it. The realisation hit me like a physical blow, leaving me breathless with a mixture of anger, hurt, and disbelief.

Gathering my clothes scattered around me, I peered through watery eyes that blurred the harsh lines of reality. With a surge of anger and hurt, I threw open the car door and stepped out into the cool night. "You can be such a prick sometimes, Karl," I spat the words harshly, each syllable laced with a bitterness that surprised even me. Then, channeling all the frustration and betrayal I felt, I slammed the car door with as much force as I could muster, the sound echoing through the empty carpark like a gunshot.

I hurriedly put my pants back on, my movements jerky and uncoordinated, fuelled by a mix of anger and disbelief. Watching Karl drive away through the dark, empty expanse of the carpark, his car's lights soon swallowed by the night as he turned onto the highway, left me feeling abandoned, both physically and emotionally. Did he really feel nothing? The question pounded in my head, a relentless drumbeat that mirrored the tumultuous emotions churning inside me.

My body was shaking, a physical manifestation of the hurt and rage that coursed through me. "If Beatrix is that important to you," I muttered to myself, my voice barely audible in the vast emptiness of the carpark.

I began to storm across the carpark, the rounded heels of my black boots hammering out a steady, furious beat on the concrete. The sound echoed around the deserted space, a solitary rhythm that seemed to punctuate my tumultuous thoughts.

"Well… screw you!" The words burst forth, a defiant yell into the inky blackness of the night. It was a release, a way to voice the pent-up frustration and hurt, but it did little to ease the pain. Tears began to roll down my cheeks, unrestrained and free-flowing, each one a silent testament to the deep well of emotions that Karl's actions had tapped into. They dripped onto the concrete below, their impact soft but significant, marking out their own rhythm of pain and sorrow.


The walk from the Entertainment Centre to my small house in the suburbs felt longer than usual, every step heavy with the weight of my thoughts. The night was quiet, the only sounds my footsteps on the pavement and the occasional distant hum of traffic. The cool air did little to soothe my tumultuous emotions; if anything, it seemed to amplify the sense of loneliness that enveloped me.

By the time I reached my house, a modest structure that had always felt like a sanctuary, my mind was a whirlpool of confusion and hurt. I mechanically undressed, the actions feeling detached, as if I were operating on autopilot. The shower was a brief respite, the hot water cascading over me, attempting to wash away the turmoil of the evening. But as the steam fogged up the bathroom, it felt like a metaphor for how clouded my heart and mind were.

Exhaustion soon overtook me, a physical and emotional weariness that seemed to seep into my very bones. I slipped into my pyjamas, the familiar fabric offering a small comfort. Climbing into bed, I wrapped the blankets tightly around my aching, trembling body. The bed felt too big, too empty, accentuating the sense of isolation that Karl's departure had left behind.

Feeling alone and lost, a profound sense of solitude enveloped me. The room was silent, save for the soft rustle of the sheets and my own uneven breaths. In the darkness of my bedroom, with the shadows playing on the walls, I quietly cried myself to sleep.

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