Taking those final two strides with a deliberation that mirrored my resolve, I found myself perched atop the low wall that served as the verandah's boundary. Positioned here, my legs dangled freely, the gentle warmth of the mid-morning sun enveloping me, casting sharp relief on the contours shaped by my navy shorts. It was a moment of brief respite, the calm before the storm of revelations I was about to unleash.
Beside me, a bottle of Gladys' preferred shiraz stood as a silent witness to the importance of the conversation that awaited. Its position on the ledge was precarious, much like the balance I sought to maintain in the dialogue ahead. The sunlight, filtering through the amber contents of the bottle, lent an air of promise to the setting. It was an odd sort of peace offering, chosen with care despite the insistence of the morning hour that perhaps it was too early for such gestures.
The distinctive sound of a silver Honda Civic navigating the steep driveway snapped me back to reality, marking Gladys's arrival with an understated, mechanical fanfare. The car's journey ended atop the driveway, a plateau that mercifully offered level ground. The sight brought a mixture of anticipation and trepidation, a silent acknowledgment of the complexities that our meeting would entail.
"You're out early," I called out, my voice carrying a depth that belied the casual observation. The moment Gladys emerged, my involuntary eye roll betrayed my thoughts. Observing her approach, a bottle also in her grasp, underscored the symmetry of our intentions, if not our expectations.
"Cody," Gladys greeted, her gaze lifting to meet mine as I remained perched on the verandah's wall. The tone of her voice, tinged with surprise yet underscored by a thread of annoyance, hinted at the complexities of our relationship. "What a pleasant surprise. You haven't been by for a few weeks; I thought you'd moved on." The words, though spoken lightly, carried a weight, the implication of neglect hanging between us like an uninvited guest.
"Looks like I shouldn't have bothered," I retorted, the words slipping out more sharply than intended. I held up the bottle of shiraz, its dark contents glinting in the sunlight, a gesture of peace, albeit a fragile one, encapsulated in glass.
Her response was swift, a hurried ascent up the concrete stairs that belied the casual nature of our encounter. "Come inside," she urged, her voice laced with a haste that seemed out of place for such a sunny, languid morning. "I've told you before not to be so obvious," she scolded, her words carrying the weight of a warning, as if our meeting were an act requiring discretion.
"Perhaps you should give me a spare key then," I suggested half-jokingly, closing the distance between us in a few strides. My attempt to lighten the mood was met with resistance, both in her refusal to relinquish her own bottle of shiraz and in her brisk dismissal of my proposal. "Perhaps another day," she replied, her tone final, as she entered the house, the prized bottle still in her grasp.
I hesitated at the threshold, half-expecting the door to shut in my face, a silent rebuke to my unannounced visit. Yet, the finality I anticipated never came. Instead, Gladys continued into the living room, her actions leaving a trail of ambiguity in her wake. Was this still an invitation, or had I overstepped? The question lingered, unanswered, as I contemplated my next move.
Deciding to interpret her actions as a tacit invitation, I shrugged off the uncertainty and stepped inside, quietly closing the door behind me. "Gladys," I called out, a gentle announcement of my presence, seeking to bridge the gap her earlier words had created.
Inside, the sound of Gladys dumping her handbag onto the kitchen bench broke the silence, a soft thud that seemed to echo the tension between us. Beside the bag, she placed her bottle of wine, a silent sentinel amidst the undercurrents of our unspoken discord. The scene echoed the delicate dance we navigated, a balance of familiarity and distance, connection and isolation.
"Gladys, I've missed you," I found myself whispering, the words barely escaping as I drew her into an embrace that felt both familiar and charged with the tension of our recent estrangement. My hands settled lightly on her waist, a touch meant to convey the depth of my sentiment without overwhelming her. A subtle smile, fleeting and delicate, teased the corners of her mouth, softening the serious set of her lips. It was a dance of emotions, her irritation at my absence mingling with an unspoken appreciation for the independence she so fiercely valued. Gladys had always been a beacon of self-sufficiency, revelling in her autonomy, yet the span of weeks without contact seemed to stretch the fabric of our connection just a bit too thinly.
"Where have..." she started, her voice trailing off.
In that moment, propelled by a mixture of desperation and desire, I bridged the distance with a kiss. It was a gesture laden with all the complexities of our relationship—a firm yet tender testament to the history we shared. My tongue delicately traced the outline of her lips, a silent plea for entry, for a chance to communicate in ways words had failed us. Gladys's response, a soft parting of lips, was a concession, an invitation to delve deeper into the embrace that spoke volumes of our tangled emotions.
As our kiss deepened, my hands ventured further, tracing the contours of her back, memorising the curve of her spine with a reverence reserved for moments of profound connection. Yet, as quickly as the moment had ignited, it was extinguished by Gladys's withdrawal. The sudden lack of her warmth, the absence of her closeness, felt like a cold splash of reality on the flickering flame of our reunion.
"I'm sorry," I found myself saying, the apology a reflex to the abrupt end of our intimacy. "I've had to travel for work this past week. I should have contacted you." The words were technically true, a veil of half-truths to cover the myriad responsibilities that my role as a Guardian entailed. The duty, though noble, had erected barriers in my personal life that I was now scrambling to dismantle. The resolve to improve our communication, to lessen the chasms created by duty and distance, was a promise I made to myself in that moment of silence. The journey back to each other, I realised, would require more than the bridging of physical distances; it necessitated a mending of the emotional gaps that had widened in the wake of my absence.
Gladys's shrug was an enigma, her expression a puzzle I couldn't solve. Does that mean forgiveness? The thought fluttered in my mind, a hopeful whisper amidst the tumult of emotions. Leaning in, I sought another kiss, a silent plea for the reassurance her words had yet to provide.
"Cody, stop," she asserted, her voice firmer than before, her palms a gentle barrier against my chest. The rejection stung, a forlorn look swiftly crossing my face as the reality of our strained connection settled heavily upon me. This moment, fraught with vulnerability, was the one I had chosen to unveil the truth about Clivilius. Her anger or dismissal was the last thing I needed.
"What's wrong?" I asked, my voice laced with concern, probing the silence that hung between us.
Gladys shook her head, a gesture of dismissal or perhaps avoidance. "Nothing. I just have a lot on my mind at the moment, that's all," she offered, her voice a mixture of weariness and evasion.
I couldn't let the moment pass, couldn't let her withdraw into herself. My fingers traced the curve of her spine, a touch meant to soothe, to reassure. "You can talk to me, Gladys," I urged gently, hoping to coax her into sharing the weight of her thoughts.
A heavy sigh was her initial response, a sound laden with unspoken troubles. "I'm sure it's nothing," she replied, her voice betraying the heaviness of her 'nothing.'
"With a sigh like that, it doesn't sound like nothing," I countered softly, encouraging her to unveil the thoughts that clearly troubled her. Yet, she slipped from my grasp, distancing herself physically as she had emotionally, moving towards the cupboard with a determination that seemed to shield her vulnerability.
"It's a bit early for that, isn't it?" I remarked, trying to inject a lightness into the air that had become dense with unspoken tensions. My attempt to halt her progress towards the wine glasses was met with a silent acknowledgment of the morning hour's inappropriateness for such indulgences.
Gladys paused, her hand massaging her left temple in a gesture of discomfort or perhaps contemplation. "I suppose it is just a little early," she conceded, her back to me, a wall of silence erecting itself with her turned shoulders.
As I nestled the bottle of shiraz I'd brought onto the middle shelf of the pantry, it took its place among an eclectic collection of other varietals, a silent testament to the moments we'd shared and those yet to come. Gladys's voice broke through my reverie, her question catching me off guard. "But hang on," she paused, turning to face me with a mix of curiosity and surprise, "Didn't you bring wine too?"
Peeking out from the pantry, I felt a momentary flush of uncertainty. "I thought we could share it later," I said, the words slipping out smoothly, though they masked the turbulence of my thoughts. The truth was, now didn't seem like the right time to delve into the deeper, more tumultuous topics that lay between us, least of all the notion of leaving her world behind.
"Hmm," she mused, her gaze drifting past me, as if searching the pantry's contents for answers to unasked questions. She started to speak again, only to stop abruptly, the unfinished sentence hanging in the air like a promise unkept.
The silence that followed was heavy, charged with anticipation and an undercurrent of worry that seemed to etch deeper lines into Gladys's forehead. Her solemn expression, one that spoke volumes of the internal debates raging within her, prompted a frown of disappointment from me. I craved her trust, yet my own secrets loomed large, a barrier to the honesty and openness I so desperately sought.
Retreating further into the pantry, I scanned the shelves for any semblance of a welcome distraction, anything to bridge the gap widening between us. Then, out of the blue, she shared, "I just had a rather strange conversation with Jamie's partner.”
The surprise at her sudden divulgence widened my eyes. Since my reunion with Jeremiah yesterday, I had combed through my memory, cataloging names and relationships Gladys had ever mentioned. The realisation that Luke Smith might be more closely connected to Gladys than I had imagined sent a jolt through me. Was it possible that he, someone from her circle, was entwined with the very dilemmas Jeremiah and I were grappling with? The thought that he could replace me, or worse, take Gladys away from the world we shared, was a cold splash of fear. My mind reeled, grappling with the implications of her words and the roles we each might play in the unfolding events. The revelation added another layer to the complex tapestry of our relationship, a new angle to consider as I navigated the precarious path of honesty, duty, and the possibility of love.
"Ah, Luke?" I ventured, my tone casual as I feigned a continued interest in the pantry's contents.
"Yes," she confirmed. "You're starting to remember them all, then."
Her voice held a hint of a smile. Finally, a silver lining, I thought, emerging from the pantry with a broad grin. "And what did Luke say?" I asked, eager for more details.
"He said that Jamie was sick,” she relayed. My initial reaction was one of mild confusion—sickness was hardly unusual. "Well, that hardly seems strange,” I remarked, trying to keep the conversation light. "I'm sure Jamie has been sick before.”
However, the look of concern that clouded Gladys's features told me there was more to the story. Watching her rush to retrieve a folded piece of paper from her handbag, I felt a knot of anticipation tighten in my stomach. "But then he gave me this really weird list,” she explained, her voice laced with unease as she passed the paper to me.
As I unfolded the paper, my mind raced. The contents were far from ordinary—a list that seemed to suggest preparations of a sort. My eyes scanned the items: concrete, sheds... Immediate storage and protection, I surmised. My thoughts drifted to the struggles I had faced in Clivilius, the harsh winds that had ravaged my own settlement time and again. The devastation was a bitter reminder of our vulnerability to the elements, of the countless times we had been forced to start over, with every shred of progress erased by nature's fury.
I recalled the biting cold, the relentless wind, and the ferocious snowstorms that had driven us to seek shelter in the caves among the cliffs. Each word on the list echoed my own experiences, resonating with a familiarity that was both comforting and alarming.
Holding the list in my hand, I looked up at Gladys, my expression a mixture of concern and determination. This was no ordinary list; it was a scramble for survival, reminiscent of the measures we had taken to safeguard our own community against the capriciousness of nature in Clivilius. The realisation that Luke's message carried implications far beyond a simple illness was a jolt to my system, a reminder of the broader connections and challenges that lay outside the confines of our immediate world.
"Looks like he has plans to build something," I remarked, striving to maintain a veneer of calm despite the turmoil churning inside me.
"Luke said it was a surprise for his birthday,” Gladys explained.
"But he didn't say what he was building?" I probed further, hoping for some detail that might offer a clue to his intentions.
“No," Gladys replied, her pace quickening as if eager to move past the topic. Yet, what she shared next stopped me cold. "And he also gave me his brother's credit card.”
I looked up at her, my expression betraying my shock. "And where was his brother?" The implications of Luke's actions, the careless entrusting of a credit card, the absence of his brother—all of it painted a picture far from ordinary.
"No idea. I didn't see him. But I didn't think to ask until after I'd already left,” she explained, her words trailing off into the charged silence that enveloped us.
A realisation dawned on me, dark and foreboding. If Luke’s partner and brother were now entangled in Clivilius, then Luke's nightmare was indeed just beginning, unfolding on multiple fronts. My own experiences echoed this harsh truth. Initiating someone into the mysteries of the Portal without adequate preparation invited chaos, a relentless scramble for survival amidst the unyielding realities of a new world. The deceit required to mask their true circumstances, to prolong the secrecy of their whereabouts, was a web of lies that became increasingly complex and fragile with each passing day.
I sighed, a sound so faint it barely disturbed the air. The Luke we had awaited, the one shrouded in prophecies and expectations, seemed to be veering dangerously off course. I had harboured hopes that he, of all people, would navigate the intricacies of his situation with foresight and wisdom. Yet, the unfolding scenario suggested a lack of preparation, a naiveté that could have dire consequences not just for him but for all involved.
As I stood there, absorbing the implications of Gladys's revelations, I was struck by the weight of the journey ahead. Luke's actions, seemingly innocuous in the context of a birthday surprise, hinted at a larger, more complex play unfolding—a play in which we were all unwitting actors. The challenge now was not just to support Luke through his ordeal but to mitigate the fallout, to safeguard the fragile balance between our worlds.
"That is quite odd," I found myself agreeing, my attention fully recaptured by Gladys. "I think you should help him," I suggested, the idea forming as I spoke, a spontaneous solution to an increasingly convoluted problem.
Gladys's reaction was immediate, her mouth dropping open in a mix of surprise and disbelief. "What? Help him? Why?" Her confusion was palpable, a mirror to the chaos that Luke's actions were, no doubt, beginning to sow.
"So many questions," I couldn't help but chuckle gently, the irony of the situation not lost on me. I was echoing the words of a dear friend, the same friend who had once chided me with them. "I'm sure Luke had a good reason for it all," I tried to reassure her, despite the uncertainty that clouded my own understanding.
The silence that followed was thick with contemplation, our gazes locked in a silent standoff. My look was a challenge, daring Gladys to question the logic behind my suggestion, to find a reason strong enough to counter the pull of curiosity and concern that I knew tugged at her just as it did at me.
"You've already got the week off work anyway, don't you?" I probed further, a gentle nudge towards the direction I believed she was already considering, even if subconsciously. The mention of her scheduled time off seemed to be the push she needed, a reminder of the opportunity that lay before her.
"Yeah, but..." she started, her voice a testament to the internal conflict she faced, the 'but' hanging in the air like a barrier to the unfolding path.
I shrugged, the gesture an embodiment of nonchalance, designed to ease the weight of the decision. "May as well," I concluded, my voice light, attempting to infuse the moment with a sense of simplicity. "It's not like you're spending your own money." The words were the final nudge, a gentle push towards acceptance, wrapped in the logic of practicality and the unspoken allure of adventure.
As I reached out to Gladys, she yielded to the pull, stepping into the circle of my arms. The closeness, a comforting embrace amidst the whirlwind of uncertainties, was a silent affirmation of our connection. I planted a light kiss atop her head, a gesture of affection and solidarity. In that moment, it wasn't just about persuading Gladys to embark on a peculiar errand; it was about reaffirming the bond that held us together.
"You can stay here and wait for me to get back," Gladys's voice, muffled against my chest, carried a warmth that contrasted sharply with the coolness of the situation at hand. "The cats would like it." Her words, light yet laden with an unspoken trust, drew a wide smile across my face. It was a rare moment of domestic simplicity in the midst of the swirling complexities.
Gladys, with her layers of depth and shadows of past demons, often seemed like a puzzle I was only beginning to piece together. Her struggles, though largely unspoken, were a reflection of the resilience that underpinned her generous spirit. Holding her tighter, I was reminded of the delicate balance between her independence and the interconnectedness of our fates. The desire for her to join me in Clivilius clashed with the knowledge of the risks such a move entailed. The prospect of losing her, not just to the physical distance but to the unpredictable currents of our intertwined destinies, was a thought I could barely entertain.
As Gladys disentangled herself from our embrace, her actions were decisive. Ignoring the bottle of shiraz that sat unattended on the kitchen bench—a symbol of normalcy we both knew was far from our grasp—she reclaimed Luke's list. The urgency with which she snatched it from my grasp, coupled with the swift retrieval of her handbag, spoke volumes of her resolve. "I'll be as quick as I can," she promised, her voice a mix of determination and haste. The finality of the door closing behind her marked the transition from shared warmth to solitude, leaving me to navigate the silence of her absence.
Left alone, my thoughts wandered to the possibilities that Luke's arrival in Clivilius could herald. The hope that it might signal a change, perhaps even a positive one, for our world lingered in the back of my mind, a faint beacon amidst the uncertainty. The complexity of my own situation, with its blend of personal desires and the broader challenges I faced, was a constant balancing act. As I stood there, contemplating the quiet space Gladys had vacated, I was acutely aware of the thin thread that connected us all. The decisions we made, the actions we took, they rippled outwards, touching lives in ways we could scarcely predict. The waiting game began, a test of patience and faith in the unseen forces that guided our destinies.
For those few moments after Gladys's departure, the silence of the house seemed to amplify, each tick of the clock a reminder of the situation unfolding beyond the confines of these walls. I stood there, staring at the door she had closed behind her, lost in a tumult of emotions. Taking a deep breath, I sought to centre myself, to push aside the disappointment of not sharing the significant news I harboured about Clivilius. The reminder of my decision, though tough, felt right. Understanding the precariousness of Luke's situation, especially if he had indeed initiated others into our world, underscored the necessity of Gladys's involvement. The grim reality of the challenges ahead, particularly the inevitable occurrence of the first death, weighed heavily on me.
Snowflake, with her timely interruption, seemed to grasp the severity of the moment as much as any human could. Her affectionate nuzzle against my shin, accompanied by a loud meow, was a welcome distraction, a momentary reprieve from the heaviness of my thoughts. "You're right," I found myself speaking to her, the words more for my own benefit than hers. The idea that helping Luke might inadvertently prepare Gladys for the realities of Clivilius offered a sliver of hope in the complexity of my plight.
Snowflake's reply, a meow that seemed to carry more weight than usual, prompted a smile from me. Her presence, comforting and familiar, brought a sense of normalcy to the whirlwind of thoughts and emotions. "Excellent point, Snowflake. I agree. Luke clearly hasn't told Gladys anything about Clivilius or Guardians. He would be unlikely to take her through the Portal until he had told her,” I mused aloud, the conversation with the cat a grounding exercise, a way to sort through my tangled thoughts.
Her emphatic meow, more insistent this time, seemed to echo the urgency of the situation. As I picked her up, her soft fur a comfort under my fingers, I found solace in the simplicity of the moment. Snowflake's continued vocalisations served as a reminder of the immediacy of my concerns. "That's true too,” I responded, considering her 'input' seriously. The question of timing, of how long I had until Luke might reveal the full truth to Gladys, loomed large. It was a race against time, one whose outcome could alter the course of our lives in unforeseeable ways.
"Meow," Snowflake agreed, her voice a mix of comfort and urgency.
"Sorry, kitty," I said finally, setting her down gently. The call of my responsibilities, of the people who relied on me in Belkeep, could not be ignored. The brief respite Snowflake provided was a necessary balm, but the reality of my duties remained.
Short on blank wall spaces and under the pressure of necessity, I directed my Portal Key toward the fridge. The small, bright ball of light that shot from the device, colliding with the stainless-steel door, erupted in an explosion of colours—a spectacle that never ceased to amaze me, no matter how many times I had initiated it. "Stay," I instructed Snowflake, my tone firm yet gentle, pointing a finger at her as a visual command.
Snowflake, ever the obedient feline, settled on her haunches, watching me with intense, curious eyes. "Good girl," I praised her softly, my heart swelling with a mixture of affection and apprehension. I knew all too well the inexplicable allure the Portal's energy held over animals, much like its effect on people. Their instinctual curiosity, unhampered by the rational fears that might restrain a human, made them unpredictably brave—or perhaps recklessly so.
As I prepared to step through the swirling colours, Snowflake's sister, Chloe, a bundle of feline mischief and curiosity, made a sudden dart toward the anomaly. "Chloe! Stop!" My command came out as a growl, a protective reflex as I leaped in front of the fridge, blocking her path. The last thing I needed was for one of Gladys's "children" to inadvertently wander into Clivilius.
Snowflake's tail began to wiggle, a sign of her growing excitement or perhaps confusion at the unfolding drama. With my arms outstretched, creating a barrier no curious cat could bypass, I cautiously moved backward through the Portal, my heart racing with the fear of unwanted followers.
The moment my foot touched the cold, stone floor of the Portal Cave, I commanded the Portal to close, sealing off my world from theirs. A deep breath escaped me as I scanned the area anxiously for any sign of Snowflake or Chloe. Relief washed over me as I found no trace of them having followed. "Shit," I exhaled, the tension draining from my body. "That was too close. Gladys would never forgive me."
The thought lingered, festering with implications. While Gladys's forgiveness was a concern, the darker musing of a "carefully orchestrated accident" wormed its way into my thoughts—an insidious suggestion that Gladys wouldn't, couldn't leave her pets behind. The idea was a dark insight to the desperation I felt, a measure of how far I might be willing to go to ensure her safety, and perhaps, her presence in Clivilius.
I slapped myself across the face, a sharp rebuke to the dangerous path my thoughts had wandered down. "Don't be a fool," I scolded myself, the sting of the slap a physical reminder of the fine line I was teetering on. The moral quandaries of my role, the sacrifices and decisions it entailed, were a constant battle—a struggle between what was necessary and what was right. In that moment, standing alone in the cold embrace of Clivilius, I was reminded of the weight of my responsibilities, not just to the people I sought to protect, but to the moral compass that guided me.
